No. But I believe I wish to save him with myself. No. I do want to save him with me. If we can only save ourselves, I will and won't break that rule by saving him along with me.
i'm mad i just left it up to him to come out. why didn't i do anything to try to help? surely there could've been some way to make it so he didn't have to be stuck there for an entire decade.
see, this is why i don't like this past life stuff. we're both holding ourselves accountable for someone else's actions. this is too damn complicated.
I suppose the best way to explain is that his thoughts are evil. That may come off benign, but he is an overseer -- a neutral party -- watching over a battle between mages. So long as the body count stays low enough to allow for cover-up, the group he is affiliated with doesn't care what they do to each other or innocents. He simply has such a cold indifference that I cannot call it anything but evil. Even if that is all true, a person would still feel something. A normal person would still be upset about the circumstances that they are in. I find that reprehensible. In short, his thoughts are simply evil even if I realize his actions have yet to reflect the same evil nature.
I see. You wanted him to do more rather than accept circumstances. Even if it may not have done anything, you wished for him to try.
It is complicated. But the decisions are simple. We accept them or we deny them. And neither course of action is wrong. I used to think the latter was the wrong one, but now I see the immaturity of my thoughts. So if you do not wish to accept him, you needn't have to. I will respect this decision, as well, even if it is not my own.
maybe he's just used to it? it sounds like he can't do anything about it anyway. but i didn't experience the memories. so i don't know for sure. but his actions aren't evil, are they?
yeah. but i guess i don't know everything that he did. i didn't see the whole ten years. just a glimpse.
... i don't know which i want to do yet. i don't even have the full story of what he was like or what he did.
yeah, you can't just decide someone's evil based off a couple glimpses at their life. i bet you'll be kicking yourself when you find out the guy donates to charity and volunteers at the soup kitchen.
if i reject your thanks, and you reject my thanks, then who's flying the plane???
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But I believe I wish to save him with myself.
No. I do want to save him with me.
If we can only save ourselves, I will and won't break that rule by saving him along with me.
...
Still, why does that anger you?
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i'm mad i just left it up to him to come out.
why didn't i do anything to try to help? surely there could've been some way to make it so he didn't have to be stuck there for an entire decade.
see, this is why i don't like this past life stuff. we're both holding ourselves accountable for someone else's actions.
this is too damn complicated.
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That may come off benign, but he is an overseer -- a neutral party -- watching over a battle between mages. So long as the body count stays low enough to allow for cover-up, the group he is affiliated with doesn't care what they do to each other or innocents.
He simply has such a cold indifference that I cannot call it anything but evil.
Even if that is all true, a person would still feel something. A normal person would still be upset about the circumstances that they are in.
I find that reprehensible.
In short, his thoughts are simply evil even if I realize his actions have yet to reflect the same evil nature.
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You wanted him to do more rather than accept circumstances.
Even if it may not have done anything, you wished for him to try.
It is complicated.
But the decisions are simple.
We accept them or we deny them.
And neither course of action is wrong.
I used to think the latter was the wrong one, but now I see the immaturity of my thoughts.
So if you do not wish to accept him, you needn't have to.
I will respect this decision, as well, even if it is not my own.
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it sounds like he can't do anything about it anyway.
but i didn't experience the memories. so i don't know for sure.
but his actions aren't evil, are they?
yeah. but i guess i don't know everything that he did.
i didn't see the whole ten years. just a glimpse.
...
i don't know which i want to do yet.
i don't even have the full story of what he was like or what he did.
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[ Kei pauses as he thinks perhaps he is sharing too much. It is hardly his place to add more uncomfortable feelings to his employee's shoulders. ]
So he may have.
If I may, attempt to have some hope in who that person is.
You do not yet know his story, as you say, so don't write a tragedy yet.
And that's fair.
So long as you don't commit, you won't feel guilty if you decide to go against your choice.
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you can't judge someone on their feelings alone.
yeah. i guess it's better holding off for now.
least until i know what his deal is.
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Even if the actions are not evil, if the thoughts remain evil, the person is not good.
But all the same, I'm relieved I could offer some support to you.
Thank you for allowing me that chance.
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i wanna know more about him before i decide he's no good.
hey, you're the one who helped me here.
i should be the one thanking you.
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And perhaps, I am being too cold?
We'll see.
I'll get more into his thoughts another time.
In any case, even if you thank me...
I reject it, since I'm the one that feels most reassured.
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i bet you'll be kicking yourself when you find out the guy donates to charity and volunteers at the soup kitchen.
if i reject your thanks, and you reject my thanks, then who's flying the plane???
[Is it weird to joke with your boss. Probably.]
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The mapo today?
[ Eh, he will roll with it. ]